and it's caught up.

Being out of school is hard. I feel that no matter how hard I'm trying to keep myself grounded, I find myself in quicksand. sometimes I can't keep my chin up. sometimes I just let myself drown in the pools of self-pitty and self-doubt. I try to keep myself going, but knowing that for the most part of my teenage and young adult life was spent doing art because that's where my thoughts swam, and finding myself now trying to be the best at fuckin' walgreen's. where have I gone, or where am I going? Projects have kept me going, but with my fluctuating self-motivation, the lack school has left me dancing on top of fire.

yeah yeah, I shouldn't be a little bitch about it, but I can honestly say that I am not professionally mature to keep myself going in a way that best works with my schedule. Maybe I am, maybe I am just now feeling sorry for myself.

I don't want to be " that guy" that once had a direction. I want to make best of my situation, sometimes I just can't. that's all. because money will be money, and I will always need it, sometimes I wish to never be rich. but what I never want to lose is myself.

yeah I feel bad, can ya blame me?

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that's it, nothing more, nothing less, just in need of a little venting.

Now to finish this Fauxmostatious Two Page Spred. THAT'S RIGHT NYUKKAS. two page spred.

some ear candy

I broke my old headphones yesterday. I was pretty bummed and I'm kinda sad that I won't be able to listen to my music like that for a while. so I was looking for some replacements and am still looking, if anyone has a good suggestion for decent headphones at a good price let me know. I wish I had the cash to get these bad boys though:

check it

that's pretty much it, computer and desk speakers will do fine for now.

Updates on Life

So, I withdrew myself from school today due to financial problems. really sucks, but the more I dwell on it the less I get to use this time of reflection and possibility. 

Since I'm no longer in school, I am working full time at walgreen's. Then on the off time I am working assignments for my own good/ working on a new reel. I plan on putting together a good real to apply to the disney apprenticeship program. 

I'm also working on the comic collective project. some of you may already know, but for those that don't.  Go here and drool over the fruits of the Fauxmosapien Collective. 

Speaking of which, here is the recent addition I've made to the collective:

and then there are these two sketches of classmates.

Evan Tedlock

Liz Long

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I hope everything keeps going better than nothing. I know things will get back on track eventually. I'm a patient man.